Our Journey Together Is Over....




My husband uttered the words to her. "Our journey together is over." He said, "It's now time for you to go and start building your life. Our cozy nest is not helping you grow anymore." Thinking about those words, our journey together... They make me sort of gasp. If you've read this blog, you know, that I see myself sort of standing on a beach looking back at all the years. To this day, I still shake my head and think, did that really happen? And, I can honestly tell you when I say I felt like we were in the twilight zone, looking back, we were in the twilight zone. With that being said, we managed to live. We managed to continue to put one foot in front of the other and go to work, and church, and vacations, and track meets and art shows and we celebrated weddings and birthdays, graduations, scholarships & anniversaries. We laughed and loved. Only by God's grace was that possible for us. But our journey together in our home is over. We both reassured her, that doesn't mean we don't love her because if we didn't love her, we'd just let her be and not encourage her to go and do. We reassured her we are her people and we will be there for birthdays and holidays, and advice and support. We reminded her that when she came to us by the grace of God, that it was temporary for her to live in our home. All of our children have left and now it is her turn. Tears, and prayers, so many tears and prayers but most of all trust. I heard it again in my mind. "Trust me." Ok God, I will trust you.  My scripture card yesterday said this. "Trust in the Lord, Tracy, with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5-6... I will never ever understand parents that say terrible things about their child. Parents that toss a child because they're worried about themselves. I will never understand. Not ever! There's nothing they can say to me to make it right. Nothing! 

 Fast Forward two weeks.

 She called and said, "you saved my life. I would have died had it not been for you two." I have to say, I believe that. Had she stayed in her childhood home, she probably would have died, had we let her go into the foster care system, she would have probably died. We couldn't let her die. I said, I know you don't like to talk about God but I reminded her our son was put in her path for a reason. They were barely 15. So very young but God knew she had prayed for change in her home and He knew we would take her. Her family, their dysfunction is so foreign to my husband and I, but we knew if she went into foster care, she'd never make it. And, I reminded her that often times when our prayers are answered they don't alway come  to us perfect and easy. Sometimes, there will be pain and hurt. And, trust me there has been a lot of of that. This child will be dealing with the scars from her childhood forever but I also reminded her it's her turn now to go and do. And she can do it better than the people that came before her. Hopefully we've given her the tools to be able to have a healthy relationship. Hopefully, we've shown her faith. I know she is still so young, yes I know that. But, when you leave because of abuse at 15 years old, 19 seems ancient. Go child, go and do. Be faithful and trust Him! Your journey is just beginning! 

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