18

I haven't updated this blog in a few months because I was signed out of the email it's attached to. Honestly, I see that as a sign that I wasn't supposed to say anything during that time lol. God has a way you know? But, I figured it out so I must have gotten the green light to continue.                                              


 We've had a lot going on the past several weeks. Our youngest graduated from high school and Rick and I were so happy for him and so very very proud of him. We celebrated him and are absolutely thrilled for his next step.  He handled so much during high school with maturity and grace. He truly deserves so many good things! 

 I woke up yesterday literally saying "Praise The Lord we got her to 18!" And, I thought to myself and then said to my husband, "we got her to 18 with no help from one person in her family, not one." I am usually very kind but my feelings on that are raw and honest, and I hope you can see that I'm allowed to feel anger towards them. Honestly though, I don't think about them too much. But, when she has a big day or it's a holiday, and I know she will be upset, they cross my mind.  This was the 3rd birthday we've celebrated with her. And this was the 3rd birthday no one in her family, not one has reached out to her. We didn't expect them to, but I'm always a little hopeful they will. I believe 18 is going to be a good year for her. It's a year of liberation. She's that much older and she is really really searching for who she is. I know God is working on her and she is beginning to see He has worked things for her good. I always tell her, I don't know why God allows pain to happen, but I do know He will not allow pain without something beautiful to be born of it. And, I keep reminding her  because she is less patient than I am, the beautiful thing God will create most likely won't happen right away. That doesn't mean it won't, it just means don't count on it, you're probably going to have to wait a bit.  We are excited for 18! Rick and I believe good things are going to happen and Lord we are ready! 


God never ceases to amaze me as he places the perfect people
in my life when I need it. Recently, I met a friend of a friend who knew this story. She shared her story with me and she experienced a lot of hurt in her youth too. Her kind words and reassurance that Kenley will be ok  helped my heart have peace. Time. That was her key word. It will take time. I'm not the most patient person. I'm definitely learning to be but Lord knows I've ruined countless pieces of my pottery because I've fired pieces too soon or I've opened the kiln before everything was cooled properly. Being patient is important. It will take time, and God's timing is always perfect. 

Sometimes,I imagine myself standing on the beach turned around into the wind and I'm watching the past 2.5 years like a movie. The ebb and flow and sometimes volcanic eruptions are all there. The love and even the anger are there too. People are in and out of the scenes, new friends and old friends and family. There are doctors and nurses. There are lawyers, detectives & judges. There are teachers and coaches. It's almost like it's been a dream and sometimes a nightmare, I mean there is hell in this blog title. But, I see white feathers too. It's all there as I watch. 

If you're a praying person, please continue to pray for our family. We are really doing great, truly but wow we love some prayer too! We are excited about the future!! 

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