Enough

My children are almost all grown and leaving this cozy nest. I've recently found myself wondering was I enough for them? It seems the days are long but the years are short and wow did it go fast. Remembering walking into preschool with all of them, and keeping the youngest home more than I should have because well he was the baby and I wanted him to play at home just a little longer. Moms carry a lot of guilt, and me being Catholic well, I'm good at carrying guilt. And, with me wondering if I was enough I got to thinking about my mom. I am sure I've never told her she was enough! She was more than enough. Cathy Jo taught me through actions about unconditional love. She helped mold me into the mom I was and am today. She taught me to PUSH pray... Pray Until Something Happens... She taught me to enjoy the teen years. I remember I looked at her and thought how? Even as an adult those little things like just enjoy it were seeds of wisdom that I was able to let grow and even though the teen years are tough, they're a season. I never dreamed Rick and I would be raising someone else's child. That's what the blog is about but looking back over my life, Cathy Jo had been preparing me for saying yes to God's question of will you take her? And, hopefully I have been enough for my three bio kids and hopefully, I'm enough for our bonus child. I hope and pray I am  teaching through action to my kids all the things my mom taught me. 


So, Cathy Jo here it is in print! You were absolutely enough and I'm thankful you are mine! Love you to the moon and back! 

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