Feathers

The past couple of weeks,  I was busy like everyone else finishing shopping for Christmas and making sure we had enough food for when everyone was over visiting..Middle of the week last week, I looked down and noticed a small white feather in the middle of the floor.  I've always been one to see feathers. Some people see dimes or cardinals as symbols from God or our beautiful angels. But, me, I notice feathers. It's not new, I've noticed them for years. Some years I may see one and some like the past two I may see many. We don't own down pillows or blankets, I think the last down pillow we had in the house was seven years ago and Owen managed to get ahold of it. I'm pretty sure all those feathers have been swept up. If you've been keeping up with this story, our story of faith hope and hell then you know it's been quite a journey. She celebrated her 3rd Christmas with us this year. She said, the first year she was here she was on pain meds as she had her shoulder surgery, the second Christmas which was last year she just wanted to die as the reality of her bio family disowning her was setting in but this year, she said, she could feel the Christmas spirit. We are making progress. Baby steps but progress. We are still waiting for a ruling from a federal judge. We are prayerful the judge will rule favorably and we have learned to trust and be faithful. I've been thinking about that situation a lot the past couple of weeks. That's where the feathers come in. Usually when I'm worried and I really don't walk around worried that often, I think a lot of worry for me is subconscious but God knows and I love that He will send me a sign saying, "keep the faith." I saw a feather last week, and this morning as I was straightening the kitchen, I saw another one. they're not always pretty but the ones I see are always white. I've seen a coupe that have gray in them but I mostly see white. Every time I see one especially in the house and especially after I've vacuumed I'm like ok, how did that get there? It wasn't there ten min. ago. I can never truly make sense of it but I know in my heart it's a sign to stay the course. Do not give up. I read an article about a lady who's husband passed away and after he died she started seeing white feathers. She saved them in a box. I wish I had saved all the feathers I've seen. I will start doing that. 

 As the Christmas season draws to a close, and I know I'm especially tired, the words the weary world rejoices ring true. Thankful for the gift of our Lord Jesus! Thankful for signs from above that renew our spirit and faith. 

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